A word about creativity...

I used to write meaningful stuff. Now I write about nothing at all. My creative prowess has been sequestered by needing to learn medicine all of my days and my waking hours this year. I come to this question a lot... is it worth it? What would happen if I just quit now and started working in a bakery or some other job where I could just focus my energy on being creative and empowered. The very essence of creativity as a word is "to create." Create for whom? Do artists create for themselves or to share with others? You'll find most artists create mainly for themselves- not caring or expecting anyone to care about their works. Such is the case with my poor, deceased childhood friend. He was a terrific artist. A writer, a musician, an illustrator with a unique outlook on life, albeit a depressed outlook. He had much to say and never wrote for an audience. He wrote to get things off his chest.

I don't often feel the need to write or draw or get things off my chest anymore, which is why I'm fully convinced that school has forced me to give up the ghost of ever creating anything and focus on learning how to heal people.

I want to go abroad and expand my horizons. For 4 weeks, I will have the opportunity to go to Kenya, Ecuador, or maybe even India! I'm itching to abroad and study medicine in an underserved area. I have heard that these areas are so underserved that we might have to make our own medical machinery.

I have heard there is an art to healing, and I'm determined to find it. It's the patients that make this all worth it, and right now, unfortunately, I'm kind of out of touch with them because I'm stuck in a classroom. Well for now I can only study hard and learn all I can so that when the time comes, I will be able to help people to the best of my ability.

Sorry for this disjointed rambling. I'm sleep deprived and in desperate need of a run to break my sedentary streak. I know I say this every day, but I'm through being inactive.